The Eyes Have It

"I can see clearly now the rain is gone. I can see all obstacles in my way"

I had minor eye surgery yesterday removing a congenital cataract from my left eye. No guarantee was given that my vision would improve, but God has already given me some improved vision! It seems that not only am I seeing better with my eyes, but perhaps with my heart.

"I think I can make it now, the pain is gone. All of the bad feelings have disappeared"

What Twelve Steps has done for me is indescribable in the written word. My first meeting was attended as many of you have heard before, to help someone I love deal with and be healed from addiction. It wasn't to long after, that I realized these meetings were for me to deal with myself while someone I loved had an addiction. That's a Big Diff!

No longer is my life revolving around getting Cliff clean and sober. That's up to Cliff and God. My life revolves around being the most complete, whole and healthy person that God always intended me to be. Selfish? Not at all. I used to think so but have learned (and am finally believing) that I am allowed to take care of myself and focus on myself in a healthy way.

Little by little I'm seeing more clearly and day by day the pain is lessening. Yes, I know I will be hurt again and I know I will be fighting to not give advise, fighting to not be in control because I know what's best (right), and fighting myself to see the truth in the light of God's truth.

"How can you think of saying to your friend, ‘Let me help you get rid of that speck in your eye,’ when you can’t see past the log in your own eye? Hypocrite! First get rid of the log in your own eye; then you will see well enough to deal with the speck in your friend’s eye."

Matthew 7:3-5 NLT


AlkySeltzer said...

Hey girl, what a wonderfully true thought: What the Twelve Steps has done for me is indescribable in the written word. Oh, my!

So maybe that's why I practice 'meditation' as one form of my gratefulness?

To all: I thank God for giving me you...and I thank you for giving me back my God.

Lou said...

We are feeling the same way today,Laura! I read your post after I had written mine, and we were both grateful for Alanon and the changes we have made.
Yes,we are "lighter" without carrying our son's addiction around.God does not mind doing that for us!
Hugs to you.

TraceyBaby said...

Hope your eye heals well and the results are great! So nice to read the blog of someone who has been doing this Alanon thing for awhile. I hope I am on my way to having the serenity you do.

Barbara B. said...

Glad you opted for the eye surgery -- any gain in vision is a good thing!

recoveryroad said...

Hi Laura

I hope the eye improves. I have grave's eye disease and I've had periods of blindness in recovery. Still sober, by the grace of God, thanks to AA.

Have a good day.

Trailboss said...

Glad to hear your vision is better. I can relate to taking care of YOU and turning our kids over to God. He does know best and as we all know, it's all in God's time.

Much love

Mary P Jones (MPJ) said...

I love the way you tie in both physical and spiritual sight in this post. Hope all goes well with your eye healing.